DRAXSEN MUSIC
 
Finally, after what seems like an eternity, DRAXSEN have released their first full length album in 12 years. The band never stopped in there endeavour to record music. The band, while often felt disheartened by their situation as a band and as individuals, never gave up. Try as they might, events and situations beyond their control became the obstacles they had to navigate to achieve their dream. Basically life got in the road of a group of talented and an often over opinionated group of people.

In the late 1990’s DRAXSEN where trying hard, travelling continuously from town to town, state to state, calving out a small base of fans that still clung onto the old school metal. While everyone moved onto the new and trending hardcore and death metal styles, DRAXSEN maintain true to their path of musical genre. It was getting harder and harder to get gigs as the new style metal bands and their fans did not want to be on the same bill as DRAXSEN. Occasionally bands would go as far as to inform their fans not turn up until they were to be going on or turn their back to you for the entire set. Childish yes! Effective yes! Frustrating yes!

It was around this period that the stresses of touring, holding down full time jobs and not being able to get gigs started to weigh heavy on the band.  At this point if someone had told me that the three members of the band would be struck with very similar afflictions occurring in three separate occasions, I would not have believe them.

Fast forward 12 years and a countless number of surgical procedures, the odd addition to pain killers and a couple of attempts at suicide and you end up with and outcome of an album called Chronic Pain. The album is a reflection of their journey. The lyrics are the sum of their lives and the music is sets the emotional sound-scape against the back drop of a whole host of what if’s and if only's.

You will hear the band go through the grieving process of the lives they led prior to their injuries which they will never regain, in the instrumental “Grieving”. You will also feel the anger and rage that they went through after facing incompetent  doctor’s and a health system that is remarkably flawed, in the songs” The cowardly Few", "The Stain" and "Your.”

The song "Where the Darkness Screams", describes graphically what it is like to be scheduled into a psychiatric hospital. This is a song written from a very personable point of view. It’s also quite funny in weird way at the same time. When you are scheduled into a psychiatric hospital, it’s a natural response to think why I am put into this place? You don’t feel any different than any other day and the people in there with you are absolute Looney Tunes. You don’t belong here with all these crazy people. It’s not until sometime later you find out that they all think the same as you. Everyone in the psych ward thinks they are sane; it’s just everyone else in there that’s crazy. It really is a big eye opener and shock to the system.

All in all, the album is 12 years of grief and pain. It’s a voice for all chronic pain sufferers. It’s a toast to the true friends that stuck by you in the really bad times and it’s a celebration of achieving a goal, when life did everything possible to ensure you would never reach your dream. That’s the power of the dream.

A good friend said to me once, "there are only two possible outcomes when taking on a challenge or achieving one’s dream. The first is if you give up. You will definitely not achieve your dream. The second is if you don’t give up you will achieve your dream.  That’s the power of the dream!"

 
 
I have reserved a special place in my heart to dedicate solely to this topic. It has made me fight for every day I live and made DRAXSEN a growing force. It has brought me closer to my friends and help identify who my true friends are using the old saying, what doesn’t kill you will only make you stronger. The songs help me deal with the things we face each day, e.g. "you’re a scab", "you’re doing it because you’re too lazy to work", "it’s because of people like you that all the prices go up because businesses insurance goes up and there's nothing wrong with you", "just tough it out mate be a real man". I've had an aching back for years and it hasn't stopped me! These are just a few examples we face from day to day, but the one thing that gets under my skins is that I have to prove on an almost daily basis that I'm sick. I do have a spinal injury and I’m not just faking it for easy money. I do have the same rights as a criminal. I'm guilty until proven innocent. No one sees the pain behind your eyes, you’re a victim. No one is there when grieve for the life you have lost and no one understands the loss I’ve had.

I also know that many of my friends have tried to understand. But nothing can ever replace the feeling of not being able to do the things my kids love to do with me. My family are big on water sports; I used to do the annual bridge to bridge 5 km swim for example!  I know that I’m heaps better off than most and I’m not having a sook. All I’m trying to do is raise your awareness of what that person’s life must be like next time you stroll past that guy in the wheel chair, or that girl who is severely disfigured from a fire burn.

OK, before we go any further, yes there are those that play the system but they are easily identified and besides I’m not coming front that point of view. The people I’m referring to and want to help have a real tough time in the early stages of their new found limitations and that is the grief that they have to go through. That grief turns into depression and suicidal tendencies. Oh and it’s not just them it’s their family and friends as well. It really is just like someone dying in the family. It is a very stressful period and for some it takes longer than others, but really you never really get over it. You just don’t focus on it as much. You have to find new ways to occupy your mind and with that business of life you start to get your own life back.

On DRAXSEN’s new album, which is due out next month, I purposely have two songs as instrumentals. My reasoning behind this is simple. By reading the title of the piece and listening to the music, I believe you will be able to understand more about how we feel and what we have gone through. Grieving is the first instrumental piece we arranged to help us with our grief. When you really listen you can hear the tear drops as they drip onto the snare drum and the sizzle as they drip on the strings of the electric guitars. I have always proclaimed that music is a form of art. You need to look deeper into it and feel the emotions the artist was going through at the time the song was being constructed.

The second item I am being a little more cryptic about. We decided to call it “The Cowardly Few Part II: “Who’s laughing now”. Again it’s an instrumental piece and I pencilled it when I was, we’ll let’s say hospitalised. I have no doubt that these people whom I am speaking of are power hungry and mad to boot. If it takes five grown men to remove one person from a wheel chair to the floor and pin them down, well the song says it all. Who Laughing now!


 
 
I have faced my share of Monsters in my life. Some I created, some I borrowed, some controlled me more than I'd like to admit and some were just fate. Like everyone else, I clocked them up to experience from which I tried to learn and grow from.

Beware the monsters is a collection of my work and thoughts from the last 20 years that I have spent trying to make it in the music industry. Doing so I threw away an opportunity to represent my country at the Olympics as a prodigal for my chosen sport. For some of the lyrics I have placed commentaries with to give you an insight, while others describe themselves and the aspects of my life. Some may move you, while others show a touch of sarcasm. But above all I believe you will find a piece of yourself inside these pages and I hope they give you a chance to help your explain your feelings in a way you haven't been able to do before.

Putting this collection together has taken me through periods that I had long forgotten and in some cases I had chosen to forget. However, I do feel that I have benefited from the experience. It's been well documented that I've been a victim of chronic pain and now a sufferer of chronic pain. Chronic pain breaks you, both physically and mental. If the pain killers don't get you, your nervous system isn't degraded beyond salvation and you don't end up killing yourself, you just might have a chance.

My mother has suffered all my life, and it’s only the last 10 years where she has found a way to deal with it. She found Tai Chi and is a new person for it. It’s only been the last couple of years that we have manage to rebuild our ties and now have a strong bond. Out of all the people that have helped me through my ordeal, she is the only one who knows just what I'm going through. I myself have been a lot luckier, than my mother. I have wonderful family that understand and support me, plus a very good friend that stood there and has taken every piece of shit I threw at him and his only response was to say "I still love you; you can get rid of me that easy". He and my family stood tall when everyone else would have left, and I wouldn't blame them if they did because I was a downright asshole to them all.

Pain changes who you are both inside and outside. You can't control your body temperature and it affects your nervous system which is mostly irreversible, so I am forever indebted to them. They have save my life on a number of occasions, which is something no one should have to go through let alone your children. So if you’re prepared to take this journey with me then come inside and share my struggles, understand you're not alone. Confront my demons with me, and then confront your own.                              

Legion "Beware the Monsters" DRAXSEN                                     

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